She's In Denial.

30 September 2006

o.0 I am officially SEH-ED!

Went down to TP in the morning for practice. Will be performing in the evening. Everything went well la I can say.

Then bus-ed down to XiangLin with Boon, Kevin, ChaoYong, Joyce and Yin Zhi. Everything went well too, till Boon broke my pipa string. Haha. Wth la. =.=''

Replaced the string but the quality ain't that good. Sound sucky.

Argh. Why break when there's a performance later. And why break when I don't have a spare string of the same quality. ='(

Performance at CP there wasn't good too. Cuz of some dumb reason. Ppl there should know ya. You know, I know. Great. =x

Then bus-ed down to EastPoint to find HS and ppl.

Something that sort of brightened up my day was the ice-cream me and Chao Yong get to enjoy while the 2 K went to help HS. =D Haha.

The day ended with supper supper supper, and slacking at the playground nearby.

Now I realise.

Drinking beer after having a long and taxing day is the most wonderful thing that can happen to me.

LOL.

I actually crave for that! Gosh. Not as if im alcoholic. =x

But it's nice.

LONG DAY TML TOO.

Left`alone
9/30/2006 11:40:00 PM™

28 September 2006

ACTS lessons and MUST lessons cancelled for 2wks. So what does it mean?

Simple. No school on Thurs. =D

Went to the doctor in the morning. Cuz there are some irritating bums surfacing on my arms and legs. Like those mosquitoes bites. Irritating and ugly la.

Gosh. The doctor gave me some pills to cure the itch and a cream to apply. But if they don't go away or if more of them start to surface, I hafta go for a blood test.

Eh scary la.

Stayed at home for the whole day except for going metta to teach.

The student was late for 30mins. haha. When I was about to leave then he came.

Actually, I find it kinda interesting in teaching metta kids. He may be quiet, and may not be responsive, but I can see that he is trying his best to do what I ask him to, like playing according to my beat and stuff.

Interesting interesting.

Hahahha.

Lesson from 8 to 10am tomorrow. Siaaann~ hahaha.

Left`alone
9/28/2006 09:47:00 PM™

25 September 2006

Some angels must be playing a joke on me, on the very first day of semester 2.

Dragged myself out of bed early this morning and train-ed down to SP. The train was packed, Dover station was crowded like shit. Aye, new semester, new batch of SP students. That explained why.

Anyway, I made an effort not to be late today cuz we're having a new lecturer for KEYS.

Hey, when I reached the classroom, INDEED!! The lecturer wasn't there at all.

Im earlier than lecturer at last, I thought.

KEYS lesson is from 10am to 1pm. But let me tell you, even if you come at 12nn today, you'll be earlier than the lecturer too.

Cuz the lecturer din't even show up for class today.

=.=''

It appeared that she is involved in Singapore Idol and cancelled today's class but the message didn't reach us.

She is SI's vocal coach btw.

So KEYS cancelled.

And we heard some news saying Jimmy Jap isn't free for lessons. Indeed, ET was cancelled too.

Hence, I went to school for nothing today.

Apparently, there will be no ET and MUST for 2 wks, due to SP musical.

So me, Serene, Josh, Chloe and Raymond decided to go and catch a movie in town.

Went to CCA drive before that.

And I saw Daryl. =/

The first time was when someone called out "Daryl" and I turned to look in that direction. I admit that I do wish to see him la. At least see how he is now laa.

I saw him, and he saw me. But from quite a dist away and Im on my way up the stairs. So it was still alright.

Then it was in the hall, when I saw him walking in my direction. Before he have the chance to notice me and before our eyes meet, I turned to have my back facing him.

Arghh.. I have no idea how I am suppose to react.

Awkwardness.

To say Hi? Smile only? Have a causual and short chat with him? Gesture a 'Hi' signal at him? Act as if I don't know him? Stare at him, or should i say, stare at him dumbly [which is something i'll do unconsciously]?

Couldn't decide. So i turned..

But, a moment later, Im in the same situation again.

Was walking up the stairs leading to FC3 when I saw him and his friends sitting somewhere directly at the other end of the stairs, facing my direction.

Im like.. gosh. What am i going to do. Same dilemma.

And I have no way to avoid. I can't turn, cuz all my friends were in front of me and there's no where I can turn to except going back to FC3, which is a damn stupid thing to do.

So I climbed the stairs with my head down. =.= Hoping to get out of the dilemma before I face him.

ahhhhhhhhh.

He gestured a Hi, and I just sort of smiled.

But he said something like "eh duno how to say hi". So I turned and say a "HI" loudly, turned back, walked off..

Gosh. Felt so bad for what I've done afterwards.

Don't mean to do that.

Of cuz, I would want to say a nice hi and all. But im just unprepared.

Was damn angry with myself.. wtf.

Why can't I feel as if i've met a friend of mine when I meet him. Why am I in such a dilemma.

whywhywhywhywhy..

>.<

It may be fate.

I managed to omit the first contact.

That's why the second comes; directly right in my face.

...

Left`alone
9/25/2006 07:24:00 PM™

22 September 2006

Real Estate Valuation.

Wed 1pm to 3pm.

HOLIDAY ENDING LIKE FREAKING SOOOOON.

Left`alone
9/22/2006 12:00:00 AM™

20 September 2006

Life is such a bitch! .. With only 4 more days to school reopenning. >.<

=.=''

Anyway, I gonna do something to make my remaining days meaningful. Though I have totally no plan at all, and the 'remaining days' sounds as if Im dying soon. Who knows? Actually, I kinda enjoy school. Only if there is more bonding in my course and SP 'returns' my holiday.

My timetable sucks big time i tell you.

Having days starting at 8am, which means that I have to wake up at freaking 6am, and a day ending at 6pm, which means that I'll reach home at 7+pm, and days that have straight 4hr of lessons. This is pathetic.

Hah. Fine, enough of my ranting.

Im just venting my... irritations. hohoho.

Oh well, to think of it, my holiday seemed to revolve around CO. lalalala. Enjoying it. =D

But I have no idea why Im broke. Left with less than 500bucks in my acc. PATHETIC!

Aye, I plan to work extremely hard when school starts. Gonna prove to others that I can make it in this course of mine.

And, I gonna make plenty plenty plenty of friends.

The Haunted Apartments - ANYONE WANNA WATCH?? lol

To think that I rant about being broke earlier on. Wahahahaha.

Psss. I can't wait for my birthday to come. =D

Left`alone
9/20/2006 12:08:00 AM™

17 September 2006

Im here to update about yesterday!

Went to TP in the morning and practised for the upcoming performance at CP.

Errr. Can say that the performance will be a 'not-very-good' one if the group never practise hard enough.

Anyway, Im glad to play my pipa instead of zr on that day. =D

There's new songs to find, and the scores have to be correct [ as in yq uses yq score and pipa uses pipa score, not yq and pipa all use yq score. See the difference??]. lol.

Increase frequencies of practice.

Ensure that there is enough players and they are 'steady' enough not to go MIA on the performance day.

Volume wise.. must be audible.

Ahemm! KaiBoon ahhh~ make sure the above are done by next practice. =x

Everyone of us wanna make this a success ya right?

After having lunch with Kevin, we went down to XiangLin for practice.

2 new songs with E-flat and A-flat maj. Never play that before la. But luckily XueQi was there. Hooho. She's SPCO pipa player. And somehow, she reminds me of Joyce; a senior who is good in pipa and friendly. Haha.

Had percussion practice after that.

My first time playing drum and was a lil blur in the beginning. XueQi and I kept asking Kevin what's going on.

I remembered there's once, we're suppose to repeat after the player who was playing the paigu. So we sort of stared at him playing.

I stared at the player, hoping to catch what he's playing.

*1 sec after he finished.*

I looked at Peicheng, who is situated beside the player, thinking that he understand and therefore could demo a slower version.

But, he stared blur-ly at me, giving me the blur face too. Haha.

And the player played the second time, a different pattern. AND i stared at him again.

*1sec after he finished.*

I looked at Peicheng again, and he gave me that blur blur look again.

lol.

You know what it means?? We're simply STUNNED. =.=

Hahaa.

After all the practices, we went to Bi jie's house for BBQ; for some celebration.

Eat eat eat la, drink drink drink la, talk talk talk la.

Steven talked about how he felt when he looked back into the past when he was 18+. And oh well, we must really treasure what we have now, and do what we wanna do.

Pursue your dreams when you're young.

Bused home at 11+pm, and I reached home at around 12.30am.

Bathed and slept. =D

Im so saddd that holiday gonna end sooon!

I made a simple wish before I went to slp.

I wished that I can find the answer to my doubts in my dream.

Well, I dreamt.. and Im not sure whether that's the real answer. The answer that I've gotten is one of the possiblities for the answers to my doubts.

Ahhh. But there's something I can say.

The dream is as sweet as the past.

Left`alone
9/17/2006 02:38:00 PM™

13 September 2006

Went down to XiangLin today with the 2Ks. Haaaha.

They learning YaJiaoGu and Mei Er Lao Shi taught me a lil of Nan Yin Pipa.

Kinda interesting. The score they read is the ancient kind. Not those numeral type that co usually read. Wooo. Gonna learn Nan Yin Pipa from her. =D

And their 'Lun' zhi start from little finger instead of index finger, which I had learnt. =.=

Hard to coordinate laaaa.

Gosh short entry kk.

Gonna practise ZhongRuan too. Helping the 2Ks to play zr in a performance. =x

Like so weird ah.. =.=

Left`alone
9/13/2006 10:13:00 PM™

12 September 2006

Whooo. So here's my updates. =D

SUNDAY - Teaching at HongKah. Only 4 of us went there; Kevin, Kaiboon, QunHui and me. Kinda fun la, mingling around with the kids. One of my students told me that I looked like 20yrs old, and Kaiboon looked younger than me. =.=

WTH LA. hahaha. Eh I matured-looking kae. =x

Then KB, K and I went to Queensway to search for polo tees for printing. Off for dinner after that at Bedok 85. At first, we planned to have porridge at somewhere near my house. But due to constantly being PangSeh-ed by people, *AHEMAHEM*, we decided to head for Bedok instead.

Saw Yanisa and huiting they all there.

Then, the 2 Ks called another K [kenneth] down. They started drinking la.

Omg, at the rate they're, and Im, going, beer belly gonna surface man. GOSH. I don't want that.

MONDAY - Slacked at home for the whole day. Sleep and sleep and sleep. Got the skeleton for QINYI's webbie out. That's all.

TUESDAY [today la] - Met up with Kevin and Kaiboon again after they went gym. Lunched at bedok then watched Little Man. Funny and interesting.

Going down to XiangLin tml.

Actually I accompany Kevin and Kaiboon there la. They going there for percussion lesson. And I go there for... fun? hahaha.

Lalalalala.

Hafta complete my jap project asap. =x

Left`alone
9/12/2006 08:55:00 PM™

11 September 2006

Was hopping around blogs and realised that Yanisa had tagged me.

Im a victim now. =x

Gender: Male

Pointers (WITH NO RANKING):
1. Makes me laugh. I like to laugh haha.
2. Understands me. Knows hw I feel without me having to say. Like in front of others he can exchange looks with me regarding whatever others say. I like that. Dono why. Some sign of familiarity maybe?
3. Makes decisions for me. I'm a super indecisive girl and I like a guy who takes charge. Same as crystal last time lol. Dono nw stil same anot.
4. Say sorry first when we argue. I hate to be the one who says sorry. I also hate it when there are no arguements. Also not like must argue all the time lah. lol.
5. Calls me back if he misses my call, replies my msgs**, calls me often. I like to talk on the phone woo hoo. This is DAMN important I hate to wait for ppl to call me back. Got the damn gao wei feeling
6. Is frank and doesnt lie to me. Hate this. Esp when I KNOW he's lying. Zzz you hua zhi shuo..
7. Doesnt NEED to french. Ok very few people know this abt me. Only my exes I guess. I hate and I mean absolutely hate to french. Anything with saliva disgusts me. Lol.
8. Cute!!!! Must be cute. Doesnt necessarily mean HANDSOME look kinda cute.. Actions cute can already. My own criteria of judging lol.

People:
1. Shi Rui
2. Chun Lian
3. Mei Bin
4. Monster (I WILL READ UR SECRET BLOG U BETTER POST.)

So here's mine.

The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of their perfect lovers. Specify the gender of the target. Tag 4 victims to join this game and leave a comment on their page saying they've been tagged. If tagged the 2nd time, there's no need to post again.
Gender: Male

Pointers (WITH NO RANKING):
1. Honest and doesn't lie to me. Actually Im fine in accepting things. So there's no need to lie.
2. Matured-thinking. Yeaaa. Not those who think that his life is everything or being unrealistic. Aiya, childish guys are big turn off.
3. Cute and taller than me? Cute as in, I find him cute, and taller meaning not just 3 or 4cm taller than me. At least 10. x) hohoo.

4. Fun-loving. I doesn't like boring guys. Be creative! Be daring! Have a life! Heh.
5. Gimme a call or message once in a while. Not those that can disappeared for one whole day. And, return my call with 'How are you?' instead of 'You call me for?'. You see the difference?
6. Sweet and caring. =) It's a must.
7. Sensitive. Sensitive New Age Guy. SNAG. =.=
8. Chemistry. Isn't that the definition for perfect lover?

-
People:
1. Ben
2. Shiya
3. HaoSong
4. Err.. Mandric?

Haha. Anyway, Im not gonna tag on these people's board. Just do if you wanna do it. =)

Ain't I great? Cuz I realise that it is a lil difficult to really specify the pointers.

Left`alone
9/11/2006 12:51:00 PM™

10 September 2006

Went to XiangLin today with Kevin. First time ehhh~!

But not bad la. Kinda enjoyable. =)

Then Me, Boon and Kevin went CityPlaza to meet HS and to source for tee at the same time.

Got my new Pipa nails from HS. lol.

Nice la.

Aiya. Today short entry. Gotta wake up early tml to go HongKah still.

Good night eh.

CO is so fun and enjoyable. I love it. =D

Left`alone
9/10/2006 12:22:00 AM™

08 September 2006

Went to Guan Im Temple in the noon with my parents and cousin.

And I prayed sincerely for myself, studies, life and all.. First time man. =x

Anyway, I bought quite a lot of stuff today.

FCUK perfume, a small sling bag, a nice looking ring, a keychain that has my zodiac on it.

Woww.. actually, Im a very crystal person. I adores crystals. They're so beautiful, nice, clear and you won't know how powerful it is.

Aiya, it's calming. =)

Short entry today!! Wheee.

I enjoy myself.

Left`alone
9/08/2006 08:03:00 PM™

Went out with SuHeng just now.
And we had KFC for dinner, AGAIN! Haha. Seems like whenever we go out, we're having KFC as meal. How... cute? lol.

Wanted to catch a movie in the beginning, but there's nothing nice and the earliest show was at 9pm. He gotta go back to camp for duty; must reach there at 11+, so we strike the idea out and he brought me to a special place.

The special place appeared to be Hark Music Cafe/Bar, and I fell in love with it almost immediately!

Nice ambience, nice setting, lovely music, cooooool drinks.. Heaven! LOL.

And they have events almost everyday. Like live performances, KTV singing and etc.

For today, they had a singing competition with live band.

COOOL LAAA!

Eh but not really a band la. More of the unplugged version. Hahhaa. With guitarist and pianist.

So we chilled there from 8++ to 10++. =D

Show ya some photos!

You seeeee, it's kinda dark there. =x

Me and Suheng. =D

Us again, with better lighting.

Candid shot.

Candidi shot too.. When Im dreaming. Haha. But this looks nice.

My drink. Strawberry soda. Ahem.. Im still under 18 la. No drinking. lol.

And they actually lit candle. How nice!

Told yaaa.. They have the nicest ambience I've ever experienced.

Left`alone
9/08/2006 12:03:00 AM™

06 September 2006

I AM OFFICIALLY SICK FOR 8DAYS.

LIKE WTF IS THISSS??

Going on and off and on and off. AIYO.

I DARE YOU, THOSE VIRUSes.

COME ALL AT ONCE AND SCRAM OFF TOGETHER PLS.

Flu, cough, fever.. <-- what's all these about? Enlighten me someone; before I cough my heart, lungs, stomach, intestines and all out. Err. Gross!

Aiya, so bored till I blog twice today.

Can't blame me. This gonna be damn random; actually all my entries are damn random la.

AND MY TAG BOARD IS DAMN QUIET. *hinthint* lol.

Let me list down what I wanna do before this damn short holiday end.

1] Cycling at Pulau Ubin! =D Seems fun ya. Din't go there for ages.

2] Have a chalet at Sentosaaa! Heard that the rates are kinda low. And I promise that I won't be sick at this chalet. Heee.

3] Of cuz, complete my Jap Assignment. I haven't touch a single bit of it; not even the heading/title for my work. =.=

4] Pack my room. And find my mp3 cable as well as those lost items.

Imagine losing items right in my room. Ridiculous you know. =x

5] Practise ET. Rmb that I gonna scream every single note in pitch when the new sem starts?

But ah, now I can't scream due to cough and sorethroat, and my pitching ain't that marvellous too. Lol.

6] Practise all other instruments like my pipa and keyboard. Forget about guitar for a moment. Haha. It can sit quietly at one corner first. Blaaa.

7] Get myself on the right track!

8] Jog..? Yarh. Maybe. JOG.

9] Enjoy the holiday.

10] Prepare myself for school. Lectures, tutorials, GEM, practicals.. OMGOMG O M G.

Left`alone
9/06/2006 11:58:00 PM™

Looking at your msn nick, Im really thinking / wondering hard enough.

You are trying too hard to be someone who you are not; that's what I think. Or maybe, all these while without me literally knowing due to the distance we had in between, you've changed that much till I think that you aren't you anymore. Either that, or.. All the mths when we were together, I don't know the real you at all. That explains why too ya?

AIYA...

I just wanna tell you, trying to be someone different is totally insane. 'Trying'. Just be yourself and face 'yourself'. Be brave.

OMG. Maybe it's the real you. So if that's the case, ignore the above.

Im at home, whole day, today.

Sick. sick. sick.

Practised pipa, transposed the scores [ and am completing it soon], read book, slept slept slept like a pig for damn long.

Funny thing is that I've been reading story books on women being pregnant recently. Haha. Fictional stories though. But you can see how funny it seem to be when reading a story on crazy mum-to-be, which was about a working woman getting pregnant, after 'Baby Trail' that was about a couple who were having difficulties conceiving and ended up adopting a child.

Not as if my desire is to get pregnant. LAH. =.=''

Been thinking about the direction I wanna head in the future.

Seem like co is a nice option. But you see, I have no certs or individual awards or whatever, and as if im a very good pipa player, so co seem to be a hobby that I do in my leisure time rather than something I can commit in. Argh. Damn it la. I don't like this. Co's fun, and I wanna commit in it. But obstacles. =(

And DMAT; either you sing or you play an instrument. I don't really wanna sing, but neither can i play western instruments 'perfectly' or 'good-ly'. Only thing is my PP. =x Haha.

I believe that there'll be a way out.

Shall practise keyboard toooo.

Left`alone
9/06/2006 09:07:00 PM™

05 September 2006

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SEN RONG!

Went to celebrate his birthday with kevin, kaiboon, zhen yong, kaki and yong han.

Kinda funny to see guys making soooo much noise. LOL.

Actually, we never really do anything special.

Pool at bedok, then bus-ed down to Pasir Ris and dined at Elias Mall.

Yong Han is damn cute la! The way he tried drinking beer.
And he kept on asking qsns like ' Is it addictive??' and bla bla. So funny. SenRong was sipping away. haha.

Then we bus-ed and train-ed to Tampines cuz birthday boy wanna play games.

That Yong Han is reallly dammnn cute la. He went to try the 'stacking' game. Like if you manage to stack the blocks, you get the prize, which he aimed for the PSP. But he missed when it was the 2nd or 3rd last. This is still okay. The funniest part was that he started abusing Zhen Yong. Punching and hitting him. lol.

ZY's so innocent! Got hit for nothing.

And that Yong Han kept on asking me stupid qns like 'If i stack em all, will i really get the prize??' He asked not only once, but ,many many times.

Boo. Saw ChuBin there too. Kinda amazed by it. He changed damn lot!

Couldn't recognise him at first though.

lol.

Tiring! But I am still practising my pipa. Heh.

Thinking about joining SPCO. =x

Left`alone
9/05/2006 10:38:00 PM™

03 September 2006

Went cycling with SenRong, HaoSong and Sandra at East Coast Park.

Actually, only me, Sen and Song cycle la. Sandra skates.

Fun fun fun though tiring.

Hey, once in a while a lil exercise is gooooood.

Oh yaaa~ I haven't really recover from my illness. =x

We cycled till the end of ECP then back to the shop.

And I end up with aching legs. =.=

Dined at Ajisen and got pulled by them to NUS for their yangqin lecture talk, for those who wanna go for the grading examinations la. Something like a tips-sharing session.

Aiyaaa. Me and Sen loitered around doing nothing while waiting for them la.

Actually, for me, it's still alright.

Cuz there's one for pipa too. But a lil sian. Saw a girl playing Ba Wang Xie Jia, but ah, I still think that we [naspipa] played nicer. =x

Hahhaa. Maybe because 'we' are the one playing. That's why.

But the pipa she's using is beautiful, and it's yin se is super beautiful too. o.0

Costly pipa. Haha.

Then the 4 of us cabbed down to Geylang for Tau Huay.

Nice and delicious tau huay..

Whoo..

Im coughing like mad now. And have the damn feeling of vomitting.

WTH..

Thought I've recovered but still like this.

Feel so shitty la.

Anyone, cycling on Saturdays??

Every Saturday!

I hate games of ignoring.

Pls la, i dint ignore anyone for damn long la. So dont say Im ignoring 'someone' OK. =.=

And, Fictional love stories are all so sweet and charming.

But so what.. They are all fic... nah. FAKE.

How I wish they do exist in reality.

Left`alone
9/03/2006 12:56:00 AM™

01 September 2006

I am officially SEH-ed [ worned out, to the extend of dying? haha]!

Due to illness la, of cuz. I am not that weak afterall.

LOL.

Dint cycle yesterday, cuz apparently, the bicycle rental shop closed early. Far toooo early. Kinda disappointed la. We all cabbed out to search for bicycle shop and cabbed in again when we failed to find one that was open.

There's me, kevin, kaiboon, haosong and peicheng[a very senior-y senior].

But alright la, next time can cycle still.

So we went back to the chalet.

Slacked around awhile, solved some 'problems' and then the whole bunch of us went to have a walk at Changi Village, looking at 'women'. You know you know? Those kind.

Omg they're really beautiful, and tall.

The perfect model look.

Nice figure and bla bla. But no matter how perfect they appear to be, Im still better. =x

Half-way back, I started to sneeze like hell. Gosh. Killer flu started to kick in.

So they went to buy medicine and water for me. Thanks a lot ya. Really appreciate it.

Back at the chalet, I went to bathe and joined them in the room for card games la.

Did I mention that no matter how hard i try to master Daidee, I still can't get it. Like the sequences and order, rules and bla bla.

Peicheng decided to teach me, this dumbo student. And alright la. Figured out how to play, at least I think I've figured out how to.

Then they started to chat. Kinda fun listening to all the ridiculous stuff that happened back then, especially with a senior who had experienced the morning and afternoon sessions of secondary school. They chat about things guys loved to chat. So as a girl, I just listen la. And my sorethroat kicked in like mad, with cough.

GOSH. =x

Managed to rest for a few minutes, with the lights off and my eyes closed.

I have no idea whether I did sleep or what, everything was blurry.

Whooo.

And I slept for the whole of today.

Am sick still. Ain't a good feeling.

Cough, flu, sorethroat, and I feel so cold.

Aiya.

SEH ALREADY LA.

lol.

Left`alone
9/01/2006 08:54:00 PM™